i had forgotten what swimming in the ocean really felt like, when you jump over waves and feel invincible, and when you dive through and come out gasping on the other side, laughing and shaking salt out of your eyes, and then the pounding ones that take you with them and spin you around until no way is up and you finally break the surface and the light returns. for me, there’s always the fear of the ocean when i’m in it, it has such power, but then the salt lifts you up and the sun is bright and you’re surrounded by friends and it’s all okay really.